i need a job lah!
BATA wont hire me!

25 things.
and no, no one tagged me. i want to do it cos i'm bored.

1. I'm heading to Ngee Ann Poly
2. i hate children. wait, bratty children.
3. and smart alecs too.
4. but unfortunately i'm posted to early childhood.
5. and i'm debating with myself whether its legal to pull a bratty and prissy girl's hair.
6. naughty i can stand. its the smart alecs that i feel like killing.
7. i suck at searching for a job.
8. cos i want a no-commitment and simple yet high paid job.
9. wait, everybody wants a simple yet high paid job.
10. i have an internal alarm clock inside me which wakes me up at 11.30am.
11. i love my boyfriend cum bestfriend more than anything else in the world.
12. his name is Mima!
13. did i mention he's my pet too?
14. i hate looking at pretty girls.
15. cos they make me look ugly
16. and sometimes i do believe i'm ugly.
17. talk about low self esteem. but im happy!
18. ugly but happy also okay whaaaat.
19. Tahu Nahu is effiing gay
20. How the hell children are not traumatised by it also i dont know.
21. i'm like an absolute animal lover.
22. kill a cat, i'll cry. kill some random guy, i wont.
23. should i work at the school canteen?
24. My nenek is watching nenek super spy.
25. i secretly think my grandma is a super spy.

I NEED A JOB LAH *insert a stream of profanities*

i took about 10 minutes stoning infront of the computer screen thinking what to type here. i have a million and one things to type here but i just cant seem to find the right words to describe how i'm feeling. I need to go out, alone, to clear my mind cos rotting at home is killing me! Its good to know that those heading to JC are starting school next 2 weeks so atleast their minds are gonna be occupied with facts, whereas my unoccupied mind keeps thinking about other unimportant stuffs and that makes me feel upset!


 
 
i think ive reached the stage where i'll start to ponder about my existence in this world, what is the purpose of life and other sorts of questions that is normally asked in motivational workshops. And i think i've reached the stage where i'm beginning to feel really attached towards my religion. I love God and i know God loves me. I love talking to God and sometimes i find myself looking above, smiling. i know, i know. so corny. but you gotta try it! try talking to God. you might think that's redundant cos He hears your thoughts anyway but talking to God is so much better than talking to a human being. A human being can just suddenly go, "eh you know what? i think i hate you. I'm gonna use the secret that you'd just told me and blackmail you." get what i mean? When talking to God, its just you, and Him. no one else.

i hate to think that i'm very emotional and sensitive. but you know what, you gotta accept the damn truth. I AM VERY SENSITIVE AND EMOTIONAL. I cry all the time..silently that is. i rarely cry in public. a very easy way to catch me crying is when you realise i'm in the toilet for a very very long time. I keep thinking that crying makes me look weak, i know i know and dont you dare tell me i'm wrong cos i know i'm wrong. crying does not make an individual look weak. When was the last time i cried? oh yeah that day when i was on the phone with shahirah. that was my first time in my almost seventeen years of existence that i cried on the phone while pouring my feelings out (oh anyway, thanks bestfriend!) i wasnt even crying cos i was sad. i was crying cos i was angry! i cried once during english class because of this problem i had and im glad no one noticed the sudden downpour of tears. and i felt good after that! hehe.

I may not reply your sms messages. Ive exchanged the damn ugleh temporary phone with my dad and then i realised i'm better off with the ugly phone cos my dad warned me about deleting his msgs - he have almost 400 messages! and then after secretly deleting some of his messages, the 'Not enough memory to perform operation. delete some data first.' icon still appears for like what, the hundredth time?!
and i can get a new phone only on the 15 of February!